Reflection

Walking into this class I figured I would be able to easily get a good grade without trying.  Like most of my grades in the past, they just came easily to me.  Until this year I have never felt my grades slipping the way that they are.  It worries me that I thought I understood the material in this class, but when we took the test I felt completely unprepared.  At this point, I don't feel like the student that I have always been. I'm not saying it's this class that is ruining my work ethics, because I take full responsibility for that.  However, I believe that I may have overloaded my schedule and it is hard to keep up in all my classes.  On top of that, with the mass amounts of homework I recieve, I have only been getting about four hours of sleep at night at the most.  As I become more exhausted I have been breaking down if someone says anything I don't like.  When I try to talk to my own parents about how I am struggling, they have no idea how to help me.  It doesn't help current issues in my family when I have to avoid their problems in order to solve my own.  I recall the inspirational video we watched about if someone wants to succeed, then they may have to sacrifice sleep.  I guess at this point I can't even function properly due to my homework keeping me up at night. I really thought I could manage my time, but I am beginning to really doubt myself, and honestly I am starting to believe less and less about my intelligence.  I never thought I would come to this point, but now that I am faced with this challenge I have no other choice but to step up to the plate.  I must study harder (even though I thought I was), come in for help, and believe in myself.  This year is not going to be easy, and something has to change.
"We enjoy warmth because we have been cold.  We appreciate light because we have been in darkness.  By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness."
                                                                          -David Weatherford
                                                                                                               Sarah.